It’s been a good month since I’ve been on here. I’ve been so busy with everything and I just haven’t really had time to spend away all of my time on tumblr like I used to before. I lost so many followers it’s insane, but now that summer is just about here I’ll have a lot more time on my hands. I am done with high school in a little over a week… It’s honestly so crazy to think about. And as excited as I am to be done, it really is bittersweet and I’ll be more independent than I have been these past few years. It’s weird how much I’ve transformed over the past 4 years, and it literally feels like I started high school not too long ago, it’s really weird.
It all started freshman year..man that was honestly one of the best but also craziest years of high school. However, there was soooo much drama. Friend drama, guy drama, just like the whole package. I got my first legit boyfriend at the end of that year (even though there was so much drama with him to start off) and it was the guy I liked most of that year. Which brought me to the best summer of my life, one that I’ll never forget. However, I was stupid and forgot about all of my friends for awhile.
Which brings us to sophomore year. My heart was broken half way through this year and I was depressed for the other half. It was also the year of many firsts; first time drinking, first time sneaking out, first time hooking up with a random guy, all that fun stuff.. There was also a lot of family drama that year and I was just a mess, all the time. Gah, I don’t miss 2010 at alllllllll.
However junior year I totally turned around, and had probably the best year of my life. I made so many friends, got into a lot healthier of a relationship, only partied occasionally, and of course that’s when I was introduced to the wonderful world of marijuana…oh goodness. And even when my boyfriend and I broke up, I was still alright. I had a lot of “things” with guys after that and just hung out with my friends all the time. Honestly, I just miss those times.
The summer after that was also another really good summer. I hung out with the same group of people allllll the time and even though 2 of my good friends were in Germany, I hung out with them a lot when they got back and just had a really good summer.
Which brings us to senior year… One hell of a year. Honestly so many bad things happened this year but a lot of good things happened this year too. The only way to describe this year is it was an emotional dollar coaster. I def got into a lot more trouble this year. I even started smoking cigarettes, one thing I promised myself I’d never do. I lost 2 of my closest friends, had a LOT of boy issues, and had so many family issues that I was just depressed and grounded half of this year. I’ve been so much better lately though. I’ve def been in better moods and now since my best friend got caught having a bunch of illegal shit, I’m in trouble now too. I’m laying low with the alcohol, weed, and cigs for awhile because I just have realized that all of this shit is not worth getting in trouble for. It has brought out the worst in all of us, that not even our own family can stand us. I just need to take a break from it all. High school ends in 10 days and graduation is following soon after that. I can’t wait to be college bound and start something with my life, cause I can’t take this high school bullshit anymore. However, it is bittersweet and I’m gonna miss all the good times I’ve had and all of the bad times that I learned from.
